899: Reaching Out

Summary

About this episode

Sayre Quevedo’s invented a way to do a podcast that feels completely new. He’s been recording nearly all his conversations for years, and the result is something that captures a person’s life in a raw and complicated way that’s rarely heard. His new show Reaching Out also documents his mutually judge-y relationship with his twin brother as they set out to find their long-lost birth father. Want to watch our live show this Friday? Use free trial code LIVESTREAM when you sign up as a <a href="https://thisamericanlife.supercast.com?utm_id=lifepartners&amp;utm_source=rss&amp;utm_medium=shownotes" rel="noreferrer noopener" target="_blank">Life Partner</a>.(00:00:00) Prologue: Ira Glass introduces Reaching Out, a podcast that feels like it invented something completely new — an ambitious way of capturing a life in a way we'd never heard before. (1 minute)(00:02:39) Part One: Sayre Quevedo and his brother start the search for their birth father, and they discover that this whole time he’s been a few minutes away from where Sayre lives. (20 minutes)(00:21:57) Part Two: The twins try reaching out in a variety of ways before taking more direct action. Sayre tries to continue life as normal. (12 minutes)(00:34:00) Part Three: Sayre and Connor go in person to face their dad. (24 minutes)Transcripts are available at <a href="https://www.thisamericanlife.org/899/transcript" rel="noreferrer noopener" target="_blank">thisamericanlife.org</a> / This American Life <a href="https://www.thisamericanlife.org/page/privacy-policy" rel="noreferrer noopener" target="_blank">privacy policy</a>. / Learn more about <a href="https://podcastchoices.com/adchoices" rel="noreferrer noopener" target="_blank">sponsor message choices</a>.<br /><br />🎬 SEE THE STORY UNFOLD:<br />Want to see the original photos, documents, and the faces behind this week's acts?<br />👇 View the visual archive for this episode here:<br /><b><a href="https://goo.su/XwNQm" rel="noreferrer noopener" target="_blank">https://goo.su/XwNQm</a></b><br />(Updated for each story)

Key Insights

• Sarah has recorded nearly all his personal conversations since age 16, yet notably did not record the pivotal call when Connor first proposed searching for their father, suggesting a conscious or unconscious decision to leave some moments unrecorded.
• The podcast explores how language, despite millennia of human development, frequently fails to convey true intention and meaning between speakers, with the most honest communication sometimes occurring in silence rather than words.
• Sarah contracted therapy during the pandemic specifically around fear of never falling in love, a fear that appears more foundational to his anxiety than his absent father.
• The brothers demonstrate fundamentally different approaches to freedom: Sarah's freedom comes through stability and safety (steady job, apartment, routine), while Connor's comes through mobility and rejection of convention (trains, farms, transience).
• Despite their differences, the brothers show emotional vulnerability about protecting each other—Sarah expresses concern about their father being mean to Connor, and Connor reciprocates this protective instinct.
• The discovery that their biological father owns a barbershop exactly five minutes from Sarah's apartment in Los Angeles represents an extraordinary coincidence that Sarah has apparently been living near his father unknowingly for months.
• Sarah's attempts to contact his father escalate in intensity but are met with silence or non-response—an email goes unanswered, a phone call results in the father allegedly being in the bathroom—suggesting possible avoidance.
• Sarah's mother is notably unguarded about their biological father's history (a line cook and rockabilly musician) but never pressed the issue of paternity with him, and communication ceased when she felt he was being justified in his absence.
• The podcast employs a unique narrative technique where a third-person omniscient narrator describes what the subject is simultaneously recording in first-person, creating a layered perspective on events.
• Sarah uses Tinder extensively while drunk, recording his own swipes and rejections, demonstrating how he archives even his moments of desperation and loneliness.
• The brothers' decision to hand a physical note rather than call or email represents a shift from distant communication to direct confrontation, forcing their father to receive the information face-to-face.
• Sarah describes his drinking and late-night bar visits as part of a 'Bermuda Triangle' circuit where he black outs, leaving only recordings as evidence of his behavior during these periods.

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