From the archive: ‘Iran was our Hogwarts’: my childhood between Tehran and Essex

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Author Ariane Chavez reflects on her childhood split between Essex, England and summers in Iran, drawing parallels to Harry Potter's dual worlds. She describes how Iran felt magical and accepting compared to the racism and hostility in England, but notes how political tensions eventually cut off access to Iran, forcing her family into permanent exile from that part of their identity.

Summary

Ariane Chavez, a British-Iranian author, recounts her childhood experience living between two worlds - her everyday life in Essex, England and magical summers spent in Iran with extended family. She draws extensive parallels to Harry Potter, describing Iran as their 'Hogwarts' - a place where she and her sisters felt special and accepted, unlike in England where they faced racism and hostility for being different. In Essex, they attended an underperforming school where poverty and racism flourished, and they had to hide their Iranian identity to avoid bullying and suspicion. The author describes the transformative journey each summer - flying to Iran where they were celebrated as minor celebrities, reuniting with loving relatives, and experiencing freedom from British social constraints. Her British mother was beloved by Iranian relatives, while her Kurdish-Iranian father regained his confidence and wit in his homeland. The children experienced a reversal of status - from being too foreign in Britain to being revered (partly due to their lighter features and Western residence) in Iran. However, circumstances changed dramatically after the essay was written. Iran has faced severe economic hardship, with 40% of households in poverty by 2023, food costs skyrocketing, environmental crises including drought, and ongoing protests met with state repression. Currently, Iran faces airstrikes from Israel and the US, creating a public health emergency. Meanwhile, Britain has moved further right politically, with increased anti-immigrant sentiment. Political tensions between Britain and Iran eventually severed the family's connection - banking relations were cut, embassies closed, and flights suspended, effectively closing their 'portal' between worlds. The author reflects on the unique perspective that comes from migration and exile, citing Edward Said's observation about the 'contrapuntal' experience of living between two environments simultaneously, which creates both pain and special insight.

Key Insights

  • The author describes Iran as a magical escape from the racism and hostility she experienced in Essex schools, where difference was always treated as deficiency and children policed otherness mercilessly
  • She argues that migration creates a unique form of clear-sightedness, allowing people to escape the 'gravities' of both worlds while becoming more comfortable with complexity and contradiction
  • The author reveals how worth and status are relative - they were diminished in Britain for being foreign but celebrated in Iran partly because they were whiter and from a wealthy Western country
  • She explains that political tensions between Iran and Britain eventually severed practical connections, with banking relations cut, embassies closed, and flights suspended, forcing permanent exile from half of their identity
  • The author argues that life in Iran has deteriorated dramatically since her essay, with 40% of households now in poverty, food costs quadrupling, and environmental crises creating widespread hardship
  • She describes how her father was forced to make himself small and tolerated in Britain, suppressing his wit and complexity, but regained his full masculine identity and confidence when returning to Iran each summer
  • The author contends that Britain has moved further right than at any point in her lifetime, with increased flag-flying campaigns and anti-immigrant sentiment making children of color feel increasingly unwanted
  • She argues that the experience of living between worlds creates both profound loss and unique perspective, citing Edward Said's concept of exile as creating 'contrapuntal' awareness where both environments remain vivid and present simultaneously

Topics

dual identitychildhood immigration experienceIran-Britain relationsracism and belongingfamily connectionspolitical exilecultural identityHarry Potter metaphor

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