The hardest week of my life (Resuming soon)
A teacher/content creator shares a personal update after experiencing a deeply difficult week, likely due to a bereavement (13th-day post-death ceremony mentioned). He draws comfort from Gurbani (Sikh scripture) teachings on impermanence and commits to resuming his classes on May 17th.
Summary
The speaker opens by quoting Gurbani (Sikh holy scripture), specifically referencing teachings that nothing in this world is permanent and that change is the basic law of nature. He acknowledges that while he has read and understood these teachings intellectually for many years, truly absorbing and accepting them emotionally takes much more time — and he is actively trying to work through this grief.
He further references Gurbani's teaching that those who come into this world must eventually leave — 'jo aaya so chalsi' — and that death is written before birth, emphasizing that no one can stop what is destined. These scriptural reflections suggest he is processing the loss of a close person.
He then provides a practical update to his audience: the '13th' ceremony (a post-death Sikh ritual observed 13 days after passing) is on the coming Saturday. Following that, he plans to take a flight back to Delhi, arriving around midnight or 1 AM. He confirms that starting Sunday, May 17th, his classes will resume — both the paid Computer Architecture course and his free YouTube content.
He closes with heartfelt gratitude to his students and viewers, noting that he read all their supportive comments even though he couldn't reply to them. He says their prayers and blessings are what is helping him feel that recovery is possible. He reaffirms his commitment to resuming classes on May 17th as a firm, unbreakable promise.
Key Insights
- The speaker acknowledges that intellectually knowing Gurbani's teachings on impermanence for years does not make emotionally accepting loss any faster — understanding and absorbing are two different things for him.
- The speaker references the Gurbani concept that death is written before birth ('maran likhaye mandal mein aaye'), framing the loss he is experiencing as spiritually inevitable and beyond anyone's control.
- The speaker states that continuing to work ('karm karna') is non-negotiable for him, framing it as a necessity of life rather than a choice, even in the middle of profound grief.
- The speaker reveals a concrete logistical plan: attending the 13th-day ceremony on the coming Saturday, then flying back to Delhi the same night, arriving around midnight or 1 AM, in order to resume classes the next day.
- The speaker credits his viewers' comments and prayers as a significant factor in his feeling that recovery from this phase is possible, saying he read every comment even though he could not reply.
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